Thursday, June 28, 2012

Consumed

...with moving.

All I've really had time for doing or thinking about is packing, moving, packing, cleaning and more packing. This week, however, is going much better than last week.

I was reminded of this clever and amusing post from my fellow blogger, Julie, who moved last October. She discusses the "Stages of Moving" and from my current personal experience, she was right on the money. She said it better than I ever could, so do click over and read through it. You'll get a chuckle if you've moved anytime recently.

Last week, when I was having a little meltdown, I was between stages three (easy stuff) and four (chaos). A couple of days with Blake at my side (or me at his side rather) and we plowed right into stage four and I believe that is still where we reside.

Pretty soon though (like tomorrow!), we will be at stage five (taking care of business). Here is a quote from Julie about this stage, which I can see happening in the very near future, "It is the day(s) every room is full of boxes, and at the end of it, you find yourself filling a box with a towel, a spatula, a box of Kleenex and a bottle of toilet cleaner because that is all that is left."

Looking forward to that! Here are some pictures of our stages so far:

We started a month early and packed up most of the guest room/office and finished a little painting:


Then we did almost nothing for two weeks, except we did buy some tape and looked at our stash of boxes. I wish I'd taken a picture of this because I found it comical. We have a storage room on our balcony with the water heater and a potting "bench". Stacked around and behind those things were all of our moving boxes and darn near every box for almost every item we received as a wedding gift or purchased in the last two and a half years. We did stop collecting original packaging/boxes a few months ago (with only a few regrets). We always knew that we'd move out of this apartment and so we kept them. Sometimes, I don't think we needed to, but the box came in handy for something else. However, when we finally got some real packing done last week, those boxes came in handy! How do you pack a heavy 6-quart mixer? Why in a heavy duty box that has custom fit foam inserts of course (and conveniently, it is also labeled quite accurately)! I'm sure we would have gotten by without them, but it was humorous to see all that we kept and nice to put it to good use.


Here's the guest room now (not much different really)

Blake decided that it would be easiest to start filling up our garage with the boxes so on moving day we could just back up the truck and load up. We're getting there!





Sunday, June 24, 2012

The Baby Plan - Remix

If you are reading this, that means that I've announced that we are expecting and I've posted all of my secret posts about this process (see a list of baby posts here).

We had a baby plan. We initiated the baby plan because we were ready to have kids, but really felt strongly about getting out of debt first. We also felt pretty strongly about starting our family when I turned 30, regardless of our financial situation. So the baby plan was developed around those two milestones.

The Original Baby Plan was this:
  Get out of by debt ~ May/June 2013
  Start trying to get pregnant: August 1, 2013
  Continue working until delivery-ish and save my income for a house ~ May/June 2014
  Turn 31, hopefully with a delivered, full-term baby in my arms by now: June 21, 2014

Then one day, near my 29th birthday. Actually, it was the weekend before my birthday and we were driving home to see our families for Father's Day. We were having a discussion about money and how close we are to getting out of debt and how we'll ever feel like we have enough money when I quit working to stay home with kids.

I just had this nagging feeling about putting off pregnancy for almost a year after we would be out of debt... just for money. Would extra money be super helpful when buying a house? Yes. Would extra money be helpful when starting a family? Yes. Would extra money be helpful in any situation? Yes. Would extra money ever really be enough extra money? No.

I just felt like we were selling out our potential kid for a few more months of income, for a few more months of security. However, this isn't new. I've always felt like this. We are ready to have a baby now. We also still feel really strongly about getting out of debt first. I can completely feel good about getting out of debt before having a little one. I just couldn't feel good about putting off that little one, just for extra money. I know it made great sense. I know it would be completely responsible. And those things eased my mind for most of this time.

So we were driving, and talking. Having the same conversation we've had a million times, re-convincing ourselves to stick to our plan and make the responsible decision. Yet, we just couldn't convince ourselves anymore.

I think that for Blake, it was just the fact that we both agree, how could we put off our child, for some extra money. It probably has to do with seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and getting much closer to being debt free that he can see us making it without the extra money.

For me though, there was more to it. I was turning 29, and I was feeling 39. I'd just finished a ten month streak of working two jobs and driving over 400 miles each week. I was exhausted and feeling like I wasn't getting any younger. On top of that, I'd just gotten some potentially bad medical news and was really feeling time slip away. I might have a autoimmune disorder that will mean progressive issues with 'joints, skin, kidneys, brain and other organs'. This is a story for another post. I don't have any more information that this: I might, I might not. It's too early to tell but I had some blood work indicators that mean I need to be rechecked again in a year. I truly won't know anything more until then, but I do know that I trust in the Lord and lean on His understanding.

Back to they baby plan. It all just made sense. I wasn't getting any younger, and might possibly have more and more issues as I got older. We were still going to get out of debt within the next school year. Millions of people have babies and make less money than we do. We trust that God meant what he said in Matthew 6:25-34

"Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature? "So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? "Therefore do not worry, saying, "What shall we eat?' or "What shall we drink?' or "What shall we wear?' For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." 

So we decided. Right then and there on Highway 84 between The Dalles and Hood River. We were going to have a new baby plan. It was my secret birthday present. We also agreed to pray and pray and pray for God's wisdom about this new plan.

There is more to this lengthy story. We've been very public about our baby plan. We did so, mostly to help ourselves count down to the event, and also to keep people off our backs from wondering when we were going to have kids. There was a drawback to the publicity of our baby plan though.. the public part. It wasn't something that we shared between the two of us, practically everyone knew our timeline, and friends and family like to joke around and ask for monthly countdown updates. It wouldn't be much of a surprise to announce our pregnancy and certainly would make it harder to keep it a secret until we were ready to announce it, since everyone would be expecting it. We realized too late that this major decision should have been kept a little more between us. It was fun to joke with everyone about how 'strict' our plan was and I think people got a kick out of the fact that we counted down so far ahead. In the end though, I'm so glad we revised the plan and have the privacy of it. We still follow our public baby plan when people ask for the current monthly countdown (which feels a little deceitful, but I'm justifying it). I can't wait to see the surprise when the 'intense planners' announce their pregnancy almost eight months before they were going to start trying!

The new and improved baby plan, aka: Baby Plan - Remix
  Change contraception methods: July, 2012
  Start tracking my cycle, including charting my daily basil body temps ~ July-September, 2012
  Start trying: September or October, 2012!
  Get out of Debt May/June: 2013
  Have a baby June 2013
  Turn 30 June 2013

{Warning. Possible over-sharing here.. as if I haven't already crossed that boundary} Ultimately, since my cycles turned out to be longer, thus making my expected due dates different than if I had a 28 day cycle, we could start trying to get pregnant in September and still *likely* (if all goes according to plan) have a baby after school gets out in June. If my cycles were shorter it would have caused my due date to be before school was out and that would be pushing it a little, since it's not like babies really come on their due dates.

So there you have it! I can not express to you how excited we are, and how ready we feel (you know, as ready as you can feel for an unknown life changing event). It has been so special and intimate to keep it between the two of us, and to know that we'll be able to keep our pregnancy (when it happens) between the two of us a little easier and longer, since people won't be expecting it.

After some time praying, this new baby plan just feels right.

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Next baby post: TTC

Thursday, June 21, 2012

The Last Birthday

I'm mostly kidding. I'm not really afraid of getting older (not that we can do anything about it anyway) and I'm not particularly dreading thirty.. but you know how the joke goes about being 29 every year.

Well, now I'm 29 for real, and hopefully only once ;)

I started celebrating with my family over Father's Day weekend and finished celebrating on my actual birthday with a game night. Here's the story in pictures and a few words:

Saturday started off with this giant cinnamon roll that Blake brought me. Holy cow it was huge, and delish.

In case you need some perspective to see how big it is!

The family shot

The couple shot (I'm not sure why I only did three candles)

The blowing shot, these suckers were hard to blow out, and I'm glad I only did three!

Birthday girl shot

For Father's Day breakfast, we took the leftover cinnamon roll and sliced it to make french toast (and there was still some leftover).



You can tell it is father's day breakfast because there is ammo on the table. This is really how it was
when I sat down :). Man this cinnamon roll was even better as french toast, with a little frosting and strawberries. 

This is how the men spent the weekend: in the basement sorting brass and reloading ammo. I guess that's what these guys call fun ;) Happy Father's day Dad!

Down in their little gun paraphernalia man cave.                                     This is some serious brass.

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So Thursday was my actual birthday, and we have Bible study on Thursdays. It's funny how many people's birthdays have landed on Bible study night. This night we'd planned game night and potluck. We played Bible Trivia (sometimes we start Bible study with a few Bible Trivia questions, so it was funny (and stinking hard) to play the actual game (circa 1985). Here are some pictures, which mostly have to do with cake because.. well because I made it and it was delicious. And on my birthday (post) it's okay to brag ;). Blake also brought me flowers, and what kind of photography enthusiast would I be without taking a few shots of those ;)

Gorgeous!
(Just think, you'll only see a few more pictures with this background!)


My birthday cake is from my Tyler Florence cookbook and it was fantastic. It was also a nightmare. The cream cheese frosting was getting warm while I was hurrying to assemble it (with an extra layer than the recipe called for... remind me not to do that again) and it was the leaning log of carrot cake goodness. To make matters worse, we were running late because we were bringing wood pellet grilled chicken for dinner and it took longer than expected (some birds are just 'bigger boned'). So we were over 30 minutes late and Blake took a corner at normal speed, but with a tipsy cake it was too fast.. this sucker nearly went everywhere. I saw all four layers sliding off the plate and barely salvaged it with some over correction. It was a saggy frosting mess when we got to the Frater's house (our soon to be neighbors and boy I wished we were already neighbors because I could have slowly walked this sucker over there). After some refrigeration and smoothing out, it turned out okay. All's well that ends well, right?





It was really easy to make (one pan), and super most and delicious, with not-too-sweet frosting. 

So a funny story with a modest cell phone picture to support it. We were running late, right? And I felt really bad about it, but consoled myself thinking well, it's okay- I'm sure they started without us and I'm sure the chicken will get snacked on.. until I remembered that I was also bringing the paper plates because I'd picked them up from Costco for Jen. Oops. So we walk in (I'm flustered) and they were happily waiting for us with this little surprise:



It's a running joke that they keep trying to get us to take their *super* annoying dog, Sophie, home with us, because they know how much I'm not into dogs and this dog in particular. It's not that I hate the dog, but I don't really like any dog and I feel bad for how frustrated my friends are by her incessant barking. They've tried to adopt her out, but sadly, no one they've asked wants her/another dog. Anyway, it was pretty funny :)

Ahh, cake and Bible Trivia, does a last birthday get any better? ;)

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Toasty Tidbits

I am only doing so-so on my summer goals, here's the scoop, tidbits style (in no particular order and toasty because it's summer and it's HOT).

1. Packing has been all-consuming and not as productive as I'd like. The house is in all stages of dishevelment and I feel like everything needs to be sorted through before being shoved in a box.. but there really isn't time, motivation or energy to do all of the sorting. We get to start moving things in this weekend (just into the garage) and begin the official move-in a week from Thursday. *sigh* I'm pretty much running out of steam on the organized packing thing.

2. I have been working out everyday and started loading my backpack with 25-30 pounds while walking on the treadmill at full incline. Ugh is all I really have to say. Check back in a few weeks and we'll see if there's any difference.

3. I have stayed on-track with my Bible in 90 Days reading plan. I am currently 20.5% done with the Bible and about halfway through Judges. You may not know it from this post, particularly #1, but God has been teaching me a lot about not grumbling and remembering where I've come from and the ways God has brought me here.

4. The women's book study: What's It Like to Be Married to Me?: And Other Dangerous Questions; has been good. It's a subtle and gentle reminder about having a good attitude as a wife and how we treat our husbands. I was expecting more of a blow from a sledge hammer feeling from reading through it, but so far it has been encouraging.

5. Learning Spanish is a fail so far. I have a few different reasons for this and also I'm a little lazy about starting it. It seems like if I don't have X number of boxes packed by the time Blake gets home I'm not pulling my weight, so sitting down to a leisurely Spanish lesson doesn't seem to fit into the schedule.

6. Everything else besides the first four items on this list seem to have taken a back burner. I am about to commit to packing up my knitting, I clearly am not getting to my blog very often and I've woken up at a decent hour 2/3 weekdays.

On a positive note, I did get to see my cousin Macey last weekend for my birthday celebration. You would know that already though if I'd gotten around to posting those pictures ;). I don't know why I thought my days would be spent with just a little packing and mostly leisure time, because it has certainly been the other way around.

I find that the only time I am sitting down to my computer to make some headway on photo editing/blog posting is the same time I used to do it, from 11:30 - 12:00 12:30 1:00. I'm also embarrassingly behind on commenting on those blogs I follow and hope that I can make some time for that soon.

I'll leave you with a photo of the delicious Brown Butter Blueberry Muffins with Streusel Topping I made for the book study today ;). This was my second recipe from my newest cookbook: Joy the Baker. (You can see where my priorities lie).


Thursday, June 14, 2012

Stone of Help

EBENEZER is a combination of two Hebrew words that means stone of help.

In 1 Samuel 7:12, it says, “Then Samuel took a stone and set it up between Mizpah and Jeshanah, and named it Ebenezer; for he said, 'Thus far the LORD has helped us.'”

In Joshua 4:1-9, Joshua instructs one man from each of the twelve tribes of Israel to set up a stone in the middle of the Jordan River as a memorial to the children of Israel that the Lord had brought them into the promise land.

In both instances the Israelites set up memorial stones in order to remember the Lord’s help, the Lord’s blessings, and the Lord’s faithfulness after a time of trial and hardship. They also set up these memorial stones so that they could teach their children about all that the Lord had done for them. Whenever I think about a memorial stone, the words of the hymn Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing play through my mind. Particularly verse 2, and the words: "Here I raise mine Ebenezer; hither by thy help I’m come" which is the inspiration behind this little post (and the encouragement and example of a friend).

If you remember from this post I've been thinking about how I can remember my time of working once it's over. I know that once I'm knee deep in laundry, crying toddlers and dirty dishes I'll sound just like the Israelites after God miraculously delivered them from slavery (see Exodus 16) when all they can do is complain about missing the food in Egypt. Time and time again we see it in the Bible, and in human nature - the grass is always greener, how soon we forget where we came from and how we got where we are today.

I want to remember that we endured this time because God sustained us and blessed us. It was rough, but didn't overtake us. And now, we've made it through!

In an effort to put something tangible behind the memory, I stopped on my way home from my last day of work in Pendleton and picked out a few stones. I'm kind of combining the two concepts of an Ebenezer and memorial stones. I knew that if I picked up a small stone, more appropriate for an Ebenezer, it would get lost in the shuffle over time. I thought long and hard about a creative way to display a stone over time that will still serve the purpose of bringing to mind all that the Lord has done for me and reminding me of the journey that it took to be a stay at home mom (someday).  Ultimately, I picked out three stones that I could put in a conspicuous place, like in a garden, flowerbed or bookshelf.

Where my stones came from.

Where they are now.

The lighter/smaller stone has the Hebrew for Ebenezer written on it.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Weeknight Tamales

I came across a recipe in the free magazine edibleSEATTLE while waiting for a ferry during our last visit to Bainbridge Island. I try to be careful with the amount of literature I bring into the house and hold onto because I have a problem with making piles of things that 'I'm going to read someday'.. but I don't know when 'someday' will ever come.

I decided to hold onto this magazine because of the cover photo and the recipe that went with it: Cheater Pork Chipotle Tamales. Making tamales has been on my list of foods to try making someday (there's that someday again). The thought of easing into the typically all-day process made me pretty happy.

So last night I gave them a shot. The author claimed these tamales to be so simple that you could make them on a week night and I decided to put it to the test. I will say that they didn't take all day, but they weren't a quick fix meal either. However, if you check "white - not of Hispanic origin" on a race/culture survey.. this is the tamale recipe for you!























The original recipe is in the link above, here is my version:
Makes 8 tamales (I doubled this)

Weeknight Beef Tamales

For the dough
16 dried corn husks
2 cups masa harina
1 1/4 cups boiling water
2 tablespoons unsalted butter, softened
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon kosher salt
3/4 to 1 cup beef broth (use the liquid from the roast beef as part of this)

For the filling
1 tablespoon olive oil
1 small onion, finely chopped
3 cloves garlic, minced
1 12oz can roast beef
kosher salt and freshly ground pepper
1 1/2 teaspoons dried oregano
2  TBSP chipotle peppers in adobo sauce, pureed or minced (more or less to heat preference)*


Steps to do ahead:
Place the corn husks in a large pot, add water to cover, and bring to a boil over high heat. When the water boils, remove the pot from the heat, submerge the husks (a couple of ramekins or jars filled with water), and let sit for at least 1 hour (or longer if you're doing this in the morning). Drain before use.



In the work bowl of a stand mixer fitted with the paddle attachment, beat the masa harina and boiling water on low speed until blended. Set the mixture aside in the bowl until cool, about 1 hour, if longer - cover.



Make the filling:
Heat a large skillet over medium heat. Add the oil, then the onion and garlic, and cook, stirring, for 10 minutes, or until the onion begins to brown. While that cooks, drain the canned beef, reserving the liquid. Stir in the roast beef chucks and pureed peppers and adobo sauce, breaking the meat chucks up as you go so that it begins to shred. Taste the filling, and add more seasonings or adobo sauce, if desired. Set aside to cool. **you can also use ground meat instead of the canned roast beef, which is what the original recipe calls for**

We bought this at Costco to see what it was like.
It is perfect for things like this. 


Make the dough:
Add the butter, baking powder, and salt to the mixing bowl, and beat the dough until crumbly. On low speed, add 3/4 cup of the broth in a slow, steady stream—it should become smooth, like a thin cookie dough. If the dough cleans the sides of the bowl, add a bit more liquid, a tablespoon or two at a time, until the masa looks more like batter than like bread dough. {I don't have a photo for this because I did it wrong. I forgot I had doubled the recipe and only added one cup of liquid at first, then had to add more later because it just didn't seem anything like a batter. Moral of this story - it's hard to screw it up}

Make the tamales:
Choose the 8 biggest corn husks, and spread them out on dish towels, drying them a bit on the towels. Rip a few of the remaining long husks into 1/2”-thick strips. (You’ll use these to tie the tamales closed.) Divide the masa dough into 8 roughly equal sections, and dump one section onto the fat part of each husk. Using wet hands, spread the dough into a roughly 5” square, leaving at least 1/2” of empty space on the top and sides of each husk.

{I'm not going to lie here, and I'm probably not going to surprise any of you either... I weighed out the entire dough ball and divided the total grams by 16 (I made a double batch) so that I wouldn't have to roughly guess how much was supposed to go on each tamale. However, I only did this for the first eight when I had lots of dough. After that I did as directed.}



Spread 1/3 cup of the meat filling over the masa dough, in a strip parallel to the husk.



Working with one tamal at a time, fold the long sides of the husk together, so they touch, and tuck one side of the husk under the other, like you’re wrapping a present.



Next, fold the skinny end of the husk up and over the tamal, and tie it closed with one of the reserved husk strips. (Leave the remaining end open; this is the top.)

Pretty little packages, tied up with string corn husk

Pour about 2” of water into a pot large enough to fit the tamales upright. Add a steamer basket, a vegetable steamer, or a few small bowls and a small plate to the bottom of a pan—anything that will allow the tamales to steam without touching the water. Place the tamales in, tops up. (If needed, fill any extra space with crumpled aluminum foil.).

Steam for 75 minutes, or until the husks peel away from the dough neatly, adding a bit more boiling water if it gets low. Remove the tamales and let them sit, covered with a towel, for 20 minutes before serving.

Peel off the husk wrapper and enjoy with a side of mashed black beans and a healthy drizzle of hot sauce: my preference - Franks Red Hot; Blake's preference - Tapatio.




*Chipotle peppers in adobo sauce come in a can with whole smoked jalapeno peppers in a deliciously spicy and smokey adobo sauce. They are pretty hot and best used when you dump the whole can in a blender/food processor and strain the puree through a fine mesh sieve to get out all of the chucks and seeds. Use sparingly until you know how much you can handle. It's a bit of work but the flavor this strained paste provides is unmatched.

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Free

It is a tradition I started my first quarter of undergrad and have continued on through graduate school and the years that I've worked at a school. After the last final, the last class or the last report - whatever would mark the end of that term - I would go back to my room and blare Tom Petty's Free Falling. At some point I switched to John Mayer's cover version but the tradition remains the same.

Yesterday was my last day of work for the school year and so I continue to celebrate the end of a long year with Mr. Petty's famous words. I'll reflect more on this later I'm sure, but for now I just have one simple thought:


Now I'm free, free fallin', fallin'
Now I'm free, free fallin', fallin'
Ya I'm free, free fallin', fallin'
Now I'm free, free fallin', fallin'
Free fallin', fallin'
Free fallin', fallin'
Free fallin', fallin'


(this is the John Mayer version)


Sunday, June 10, 2012

Beachin'

Another great weekend at the beach... oddly enough we barely saw the actual beach this time. We had the opportunity to go fishing with Blake's dad on Saturday, so I figure spending the day on the water makes up for it! Here are some pictures to tell the story...

On our way out to the fishing hole (a.k.a. mouth of the Columbia)


Ready to catch some fish!

Blake did all the work, really. In fact, I interrupted his work to take this picture.

Still working...

His dad did all of the driving, but not as much of the working ;)

And now we wait for the fish to bite. waiting.. waiting........... we didn't get any.


but we did catch some crab!

And by some, I mean about six (total from two tries and four pots). Only one was a keeper.


He's a keeper for sure :)

While we waited I took some pictures of the scenery.




We tried putting our poles in one more time (still nothing).

Patiently waiting fishing and enjoying the view.




We gave up and docked, leaving with our one little crab. Chester.

Chester took a hot bath.

Delicious!

As per beach trip tradition - we got some ice cream from Scoopers.
Since this was going to be my birthday trip (a little early) I justified the second scoop :)

The flowers down "Mosquito Alley". I thought this was just what grampa
called it, but there is actually a sign on the neighbor's house that says so.
P.S. I wish I'd stopped this down a little more.

The neighbor's flowers are gorgeous, these callas are about to pop.
P.P.S. No one is kidding about the mosquitoes. Now I itch.


Obligatory group shot before driving away.

Glad to have a weekend with the Sauras!

As I've said before, no beach trip is complete without coffee and a cookbook from Adelaide's. This time I had the bookstore special order one for me. I'm pretty excited to try out some of the new gems in the Joy the Baker Cookbook, somewhere in the book she says: "a celebration of butter, sugar and heavy cream." Is there really more to say? ;)


The first recipe I've made for Bible study (they were fantastic)